Fighting with my weight has been something I have dealt with for over 20 years. After busting out 4 kids and putting everyone else first I have gotten lost. I looked in the mirror and I was no longer at size 8 like thought I was in my mind. My closet has clothes ranging from 8 to 18. SHOCKING and super depressing.
I am pretty active, more so then some of my friends. I try to do things I think I can do in my mind yet in actuality I can't due to how big I have gotten and my cardio sucks...literally. I suck so much air hiking around SoCal but still make it, just way slower and dizzier.
A few weeks ago I put it out to the masses on Facebook about what worked for others and what other reccomend. I got a lot of different ideas, input, and options that would cost me money. I just am not sure I am ready to invest in myself just yet. I still have some hurdles to jump over and my mind to get in a better place. Hoping with eating better and not so much sugar and processed foods will clear the fog and crappy emotional feelings.
Knowing that we had a 3 day weekend I rallied hard, my carb, sugar, and salt intake was over the top.
How many Mondays have I started only to fail by Thursday... Ok, Tuesday to be honest.
So, I am starting today. Tuesday.
I decided on doing WHOLE 30.
There are so many sites and great things on Pintrest.
This is as basic as I can get it and understand it.
Many of you may know I have ADHD and am like a squirrel at times and trying to stick with something is difficult. I have a support system that I know will be there for me but not to the point of smacking the bag of Cheeto's out of my hand cause this will cause a me to quit just to be pissed. (*disclaimer)
Small changes will lead to bigger and better choices. This is my goal.
It really is a tough even just a few hours in because my mind is messing with me. I am craving food that I know I shouldn't eat and my damn mind needs to get on board with me. Most of my day today was thinking about processed food. I am thinking of giving my husband my ATM card so I am not tempted to go get street tacos. I also have to remove my food apps, Starbucks, Krispy Kreme, Panera, Dunkins, and McDonalds that way I can't pay from the apps either.
I will hit on the moving/workout part later this week.
Before pictures will be taken tonight and posted 30 days from now to see how I did.
Off to drink more water (btw, I hate water and hate peeing) Need to change that mind set too.
You got this, sister!! And I am going to be so jealous when you loose 50 lbs!! :)
ReplyDeleteLove it Jilly....you got this! Low Carb is way easier than anything else I have tried...use your imagination.....the food tastes out of this world when you don't have to eat low-fat...low-flavor!!
ReplyDeleteI'm with you, ADHD and probably about 40 pounds that could go away. I just started back at the gym today and started recording what I eat. Like you, I've been here before and then the squirrel ran by and I got lost. I also got lost taking care of everyone around me but not myself. It's easy to do and putting ourselves as a priority is probably going to be the toughest part. Here anytime you need to vent, talk, cry, or celebrate. Also happy to be a virtual workout partner (or we can do the NH-CA visit live workouts when we hit a big milestone...you know I want to see your kids!!!). Proud of you and glad you've recognized you deserve to be healthy and happier! - Diane
ReplyDeleteI know you can do this! You deserve it and I am so proud of you, JH!! I'm here to support you with anything that you need. I have recipes, workouts, etc. if I don't have what you need, I'll find it. Xoxo
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