Carbie to Barbie

So last night I spent 3 hours preparing food to make things easier to just grab and go.  Crazy to say but I am over bacon right now.  I cooked 3 lbs of it and my clothes, hair , and house smelled like bacon.  I even have tender hands from cutting up so many veggies and trimming chicken.   My kitchen looks like a bomb went off with every skillet, pot, and frying pan used.  Food storage containers are crammed into my fridge with all the fresh food I haven't gotten to preparing yet.  We have a small fridge that is overflowing with whole food.  My 2 kids that are living with us are going to be eating Whole 30 as well, seeing their "carbie" food doesn't fit and would be a major temptation for me.  They can eat fun food at my oldest daughters home for the next little bit.  Up early today to prepare breakfast that was beyond my typical protein shake or banana.  I cooked and added another pan to the growing pile in my sink.  I w...

Fighting with my weight has been something I have dealt with for over 20 years.  After busting out 4 kids and putting everyone else first I have gotten lost.  I looked in the mirror and I was no longer at size 8 like thought I was in my mind.   My closet has clothes ranging from 8 to 18.  SHOCKING and super depressing. I am pretty active, more so then some of my friends.  I try to do things I think I can do in my mind yet in actuality I can't due to how big I have gotten and my cardio sucks...literally. I suck so much air hiking around SoCal but still make it, just way slower and dizzier.  A few weeks ago I put it out to the masses on Facebook about what worked for others and what other reccomend.  I got a lot of different ideas, input, and options that would cost me money.  I just am not sure I am ready to invest in myself just yet.  I still have some hurdles to jump over and my mind to get in a better place.  Hoping wit...